Episode 57: Get Yourself Out of This Thought Pattern
For today’s episode I wanted to share some thoughts I’ve had recently. I caught myself kind of having some self sabotaging thoughts and downplaying some of my recent progress in life, and I was like all right if I'm doing this there's a good chance that other people are also doing this too.
As you know (or maybe you don’t) I've been preparing for a powerlifting meet and the training and everything has been really really good this time and I've had a lot of days where I've hit personal bests and I've done things that I've never done before. I’ve improved the number that I'm lifting, the weight has gone up and I’ve had the opportunity to be really really proud of myself.
If this is your first time listening you might not know this but if your listener of the show you know that being proud of yourself and giving yourself opportunities to do that is something to make yourself proud that I'm really really passionate about and I found myself like getting done with the lift I had never done before, hitting a new personal best…… and then a couple minutes later be like “but I weigh more than I've ever weighed before” or like “but I ate a chocolate chip cookie from crumble yesterday and I wasn't supposed to”
I kept coming up with all these ‘buts'. Like yeah….BUT ( insert negative thing about myself) It was crazy! Like I was proud of myself but then I was like “hold on you're not little miss perfect let's go over these mistakes and these flaws and shortcomings”
like hold on their list if we get too excited about yourself and I should just be proud of myself right now and it was this little battle inside my head is like proud of yourself but like you're not doing as good as you think you are because of all of this and like let me give you evidence for it and please tell me that I'm not alone in this I'm pretty sure I'm not cuz I'm not only news I talked to Connor about it but I also was in therapy a few weeks ago and we were just chatting you know about a number of things and we kind of issues asking how my daily life was going in training and I said but and she tells me a little bit on the butt and so I'm going to challenge you to a this is something that you do we don't need to have a butt like it's true right it's true that I just lifted more than it ever done ever before and better than I ever did before it's also true that sure my nutrition is probably not exactly where I needed to be or that my weight on the scale it crept up or that I wasn't a perfect mom or that I had a laundry pile or that I hadn't cook dinner in 15 days and doordash knows our address like right there's all these things coming up and she was like can they both